Starting Fresh

I feel like I  need to have a place to workout some thoughts that's semi-private (i.e. not tumblr where the kids are).
Lately I've been feeling sort of stressed, somethings that are obvious stress-inducers, something are just me worrying about crap that doesn't need to be worried about.  I feel like I need to get some things cleaned up, re-organized, finished up etc.  I have tons of projects I want to do, but can't focus to pick one.  I'm trying to choose at least one unfinished craft item to get finished and either displayed and used, gifted, donated or gotten rid of. I have all these fabrics I love and have horded - and it's dawning on me, I can't enjoy them hiding in a box because I'm afraid to use them.  I also have fabrics I bought when I first started sewing and quilting that I'm not totally in love with anymore, so I'm trying to use them for charity quilts.

I'm trying to do the same thing with the stacks of books I have lying around in my 'to-read' pile.  I need to read them so they can be re-shelved, sent back to my friend, or if I don't love them, traded or donated.

One thing that helped with the push was I got a living social voucher for a tshirt blanket.  I decided to take my twin's shirts that I've had for like 2 or 3 years and get them made.  I had cut all the shirts but hadn't sewn them yet because the idea of interfacing them all was sort of daunting.  That and my sister is picky, so I didn't want to mess them up. (Lets not talk about the fact that they were just sitting in her closet for the last decade or so...)  It used up most of them and gives her a useful item and saved me a headache.  Its a blanket, so I'ts backed with fleece and doesn't have batting.  They had another one this week, so that was my early birthday to myself - do all my band tshirts from high school/college.  Years ago I had started it, so theres a few shirts that I"ll have to pitch because they don't fit the guidelines the site has for cutting the shirts.  At least I will end up with something I can use and enjoy and empty out 2 plastic bins in our garage.

My face is broken out like WHOA!.  Not only does it hurt, it makes me feel crappy.  It really sucks because I was seeing quite a bit of improvement, then it seemed like a small hormonal breakout that hasn't stopped.  I thought maybe being in a different climate for vacation added to it, but it's now almost a month.  I'm thin king I might try to get a facial for my birthday and see if that helps.

We are going to re-do my bathroom, so I'm looking forward to that.

I'm feeling sort of...out of sorts about turning 31.  I'm struggling with feelings about not having a baby.  When sorting through Husbot's family photos they were all cooing over baby pictures and E was like, "what would you want grandkids to call you?"  It felt like an anxiety attack.  The idea of being a grandmother of sorts and having never had a child of my own makes me feel sad.